Title: my lips have the sin
Author: hoosierbitch
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Nonconsensual sex, rape recovery, post-traumatic stress disorder.
Word Count: 29,300
Author’s Notes: I thought this story was going to be a couple of comments long when I started it on the first round of collarkink (first thread here, second thread here). That was 29,000 words and 20 months ago. I wouldn’t have finished this journey without a lot of help from some amazing women. Thank you rabidchild67 for betaing, brainstorming, and falling in love with Brad. elrhiarhodan—when I started writing this, I could barely spell your username. You gave me the laptop I used to write the middle portion of the story, welcomed me into your house for the weekend where I finished it, and then betad the whole damn thing. And last but not least, photoash, who was simultaneously first reader, cheerleader, asskicker, researcher, midwife, and handholder. I wouldn’t have gotten here without you. And finally, thank you to everyone who read this in all of its fits and starts at the meme. Your feedback and encouragement meant (and means) so much to me.

Prompt:

Neal runs for a reason that Peter understands but the judge doesn't, and he's sent back for life with parole. In prison the second time, when everyone knows he's been working for the Feds, he gets really messed up. He gets turned out and passed around and brutally abused for the first year or so. After a while, he realizes the only way he'll survive is to pair up with someone, so he has a series of questionable "protectors".

Meanwhile, Peter realizes how bad things are for Neal and is desperately trying to get him back out. Several years in, he finally gets Neal released on parole and gets the old arrangement more or less back (how more or less is up to anon). Cue confused post-prison Neal who is still in the mind-set of needing a "protector" and looking to Peter to fill that role. Not just thinking he can use his body to gain Peter's favor (although that's cool too), but also actively seeking out Peter's companionship and touch when he feels panicked and needs reassurance he's safe.

( Then have my lips the sin that they have took? )

Title: Easier Things
Rating: NC-17
Authors: afiawri, elrhiarhodan, hoosierbitch, and rabidchild67! This was written round-robin style. One person started, wrote for thirty minutes, and then passed the story off to the next with no instructions or information about what they were planning. We all looked it over to beta. So let's say any remaining mistakes are totally rabidchild67's fault. (...THAT IS A JOKE. EXCEPT FOR NOT REALLY. O.o).
Warning/Enticement: Dubious-consent, and misappropriation of Edward Albee.
Notes: Can be found at the end of the fic!
Summary: How Neal got the warden's wife's credit card in the Pilot episode.

( There are easier things... )

Title: you're a mistake i can't bear to unmake
Author: hoosierbitch
Series: Kink Meme #5, follows the slow unravelling of me. The entire series can be found via the tag.
Rating: R for this part, NC-17 for the series.
Pairing: Elizabeth/Neal/Peter
Warnings: This fic takes place the morning after a night of intense painplay. 
Notes: Thanks to everyone who's commented on the series and asked for more, and especially gyzym and photoash, who (um, six months ago...) helped me get this part started.

Summary: When he woke up, he wasn't alone.

( And he froze and then panicked because this wasn’t how it was supposed to be. This wasn’t how it had been, not for years. Not since Kate. )

Title: all that we let go
Author:hoosierbitch 
Rating: NC-17
Series: "Broken Road" Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4
Warnings: References to past noncon, dubcon, and underage noncon.
Word Count: 4,500
Notes: Finally, this series is over (well, okay, I'm still planning an epilogue, BUT STILL). It's taken over a month to write, and the only reason I didn't give up half-way is because ashcat  held my hand, told me I didn't completely suck at writing, and kept encouraging me to keep working on it. This part was also beta'd by themkshrine, who did an amazing job. All remaining mistakes are my fault. Thank you to everyone who's stuck with this series!

Summary: "You don't have to tell them everything. But you do have to be honest."

( Neal at eighteen had been a revelation )

Title: on the road to better
Author: hoosierbitch
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Neal/Peter
Series: Broken Road: Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3.
Warnings: Consent issues, angst, reference to rough sex and fisting (full warnings can be found in the first part).
Word Count: 3,500
Notes: For those of you waiting for the happy ending: there will be a third part, and it should be up before the end of the weekend. Title for this part taken from a song by "A Fine Frenzy," series title (I am ashamed to say) is taken from the Rascal Flatts song. Huge thanks to gyzym for reading it and telling me it didn't suck.
Summary: Neal's hurt because Peter hurt him.

( Neal falls asleep in his arms )