This is so amazing -- I don't even feel like I can properly express how moving it is!
That you picked it up right at the end of last chapter is so brave and brilliant in and of itself!! Almost every line is chock full of meaning -- I think my favorite was: "I raped him," he repeats. "Until he couldn't fake it anymore." and I learned a long time ago that nothing's free. And nobody gives you anything without expecting something in return."
I think Neal is lonely too and you wrote it so beautifully and heartrendingly. that he misses peter makes sense -- he didn't want to lose his relationship with Peter and El to begin with but Peter didn't understand and Neal didn't know how to tell him.
The desperation Neal is showing by his continued pursuit of Peter in the middle... oh god O_O
And I love how you used Elizabeth in it -- that she saw the effect of things on Neal first hand. I can't imagine how difficult him and her's relationship had been getting back to good after that.
I think this is one of the most moving things you've written so far :) I hope you are proud of it because you SHOULD be! *HUGS*
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Date: 2010-04-01 02:12 am (UTC)That you picked it up right at the end of last chapter is so brave and brilliant in and of itself!! Almost every line is chock full of meaning -- I think my favorite was:
"I raped him," he repeats. "Until he couldn't fake it anymore."
and
I learned a long time ago that nothing's free. And nobody gives you anything without expecting something in return."
I think Neal is lonely too and you wrote it so beautifully and heartrendingly. that he misses peter makes sense -- he didn't want to lose his relationship with Peter and El to begin with but Peter didn't understand and Neal didn't know how to tell him.
The desperation Neal is showing by his continued pursuit of Peter in the middle... oh god O_O
And I love how you used Elizabeth in it -- that she saw the effect of things on Neal first hand. I can't imagine how difficult him and her's relationship had been getting back to good after that.
I think this is one of the most moving things you've written so far :) I hope you are proud of it because you SHOULD be! *HUGS*