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Me and Arsenic's Marvel/White Collar epic is posted! 

Like an Arrow Through a Flock of Doves

Summary: When he takes the rap for a crime committed by Barney and the Swordsman, Clint is charged as an adult at 17 and spends the next four years of his life without protection in prison. Enter one Neal Caffrey, who knows how to charm his way to whatever he wants or needs, and Clint's life gets a lot more interesting. Pretty much, the story of Clint in prison, Clint getting out, and Clint, like always, finding his way to SHIELD, and Phil.

The link's to AO3. READ THE WARNINGS. The fic has some pretty explicit/brutal hurt, but I think the comfort makes it worth it. The response so far has been overwhelming and really touching. I hope y'all can take some time and read it, and then go look at the amazing artwork for it (it's linked to in the fic, and is REALLY GOOD).

The longest piece I wrote before this was 30k, and it took me over a year. The fact that I cowrote something for the first time--and that it ended up being 62k--wouldn't have happened without AJ's support. She nudged me, encouraged me, and put up with me when I said things like "I HAVE A GREAT IDEA FOR A SCENE TO WRITE!" and she had to reply: "...we already wrote that." She also took care of basically everything once we finished the first draft, since I was kind of worn out by then, and swamped by the show I've been working on.

MY SHOW: IS OPENING! It opens tonight and runs through tomorrow (a short run for so much work, but this is how our program manages to support as many productions as it does). I think it's one of the best shows I've ever directed, and probably the best show I've done since I got into grad school. I hope the cast and tech crew take the show tonight and make it theirs. Our tech week was exceptionally rocky, and more last-minute changes were made than are ideal, but I think it ended up really fucking good. My folks are driving up now (we might get, like, ten minutes to have dinner together before I have to run to the theatre and take care of about ten last-minute things--the stage managers are new...). Thank you to all the friends who have been supportive and patient while I've been MIA. I love you all!

So last night, I was like: 'I'mma take a break from this long fic I'm working on, and write some random fun Avengers smut!'

Now I'm 6k into an omega!Clint fic. I don't really know how the alpha/beta/omega genre evolved, but I'm having fun writing a biologically driven D/s dynamic. Instead of a PWP, though, it's turning out all angsty and mildly plotty, and I've only just now gotten to a sex scene. It's not even with the main pairing. 

MY PORN IS BROKEN. 

Lala. 

I spent two hours texting made-up insults with BFF today. We ended on "wheedledump" and "scatterass." My favorites, though, were "rumfuzzle" and "bumplefrump."

It's a fun game. 

Summer camp is going well. I have snapped at some small children, but THEY DESERVED IT. O.o I made some time this week to work with two of the super-quiet girls, who are now almost audible when they talk onstage. I'm giving myself back-pats. \o/ The guy who's actually directing the play has been gone for the last three days, so I've gotten to do a lot more, which is great, but a couple of times rehearsal has started, and people start looking at me, and I'm stuck going: '...buzzwah?' Sometimes they neglect to tell me that no one else is coming in, and that I need to take charge and make schedules and find space. It's frustrating, but, ultimately, I'm learning more and getting great experience! POSITIVITY! (That's not a word. How is that not a word?)

Arizona's still hot, but thus far, it's nothing compared to St. Louis. I'd much rather be in 112 degree temp in AZ than 95 in St. Louis. Dry heat really does make a difference. 

Um. Yeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaah.

This post has no nutritional value!

So, I have been doing really good on my diet. I've lost 26 pounds since I started in November (BOOYAH!). But every month, about a week/week-and-a-half before my period, I just want to EAT THE WORLD.

Did y'all know that you can buy whole pizzas from Sbarros? I think, if I bought one, I could maybe eat it in one sitting. It would also be about...3,700 calories. But if I take a really long walk tomorrow, that balances out, right? *sigh*

IN OTHER NEWS, JOHN CARTER IS GOING TO MARS.

*falls over*

Here's some pictures, and here's a link to the preview. I--I can't even--THIS MOVIE. I am going to write eighty million porns for it:

• John Carter/that-little-dog-thing
• John Carter/red-Lynn-Collins
• John Carter/Willem-Dafoe-with-extra-porn-arms
• John Carter/THE WALL HE GETS CHAINED TO HELLO KINK
• RPF, because, okay, Taylor Kitsch was in "The Covenant" with Steven Strait, who's married to Lynn Collins, who was in X-Men: Origins with Taylor Kitsch, and now Taylor & Lynn are in another movie together and so THREESOME, RIGHT?

John Carter opens two weeks from Friday, and it pains me to the very depths of my soul that, because of my rehearsal schedule, I will not be at the IMAX theatre to see it in 3D at midnight. But the upside is that I'll get to watch it in Canada, with  ivorysilk and rabidchild67. I AM SO EXCITED FOR SPRING BREAK! It's my first time not staying on campus for a school vacation. Like, ever. I either camp in the library, or go stay with my 'rents and camp in different cafes. Not this year! Canadacanadacanadacanada.

RL update: I have now started rehearsals for my show, and it's going REALLY well! This also means my life is even more crazypants. I had a 15-hour work day on Monday, then Tuesday I woke up at 6am to finish a paper, and was in classes/meetings/writing another paper/in rehearsal until 2am. Like. What even is my life.

Things are going really well and I love what I'm doing, I just also love sleep.

...and now I'm going to go to Burger King and get a veggie burger and also all of their fries and chocolate shakes...

Oh, life.

Last night I read "Visiting Hours" by rageprufrock. And apparently I should still be avoiding hospital fics. Especially ones about parents in the hospital. It is an incredible story, wonderfully written, a sequel to another amazing story, and I cried through the majority of it. If you're into Smallville and haven't read them yet, and have many tissues at the ready: GO AND READ.

(Another, unrelated rec: lovefanfiction  wrote some AMAZING KNIFE!PORN on the meme [eta: claimed and reposted on her LJ!]. If you like sex, knives, or powerplay, YOU WILL LOVE IT. IT ROCKS. SO . HARD. "Neal trembles in anticipation.")

In other news, I have officially decided: THAT I AM GOING TO GRAD SCHOOL. I got accepted, I spent a lot of days debating back and forth (should I go? Should I wait? Are other programs that much better? ETC ETC ETC ETC ETC ETC ETC), then yesterday I got into a conversation with one of my mom's friends about feminist interpretations of Greek tragedy and realized that: YES. I should be going to school for theatre, because it is indeed the thing I love most in the world.

You know what else in the world I love? ( TAYLOR KITSCH. )

lemmealone tagged me in a MEME! That is cool. I WILL DO IT.

( A MEME )

I'm going out of town today and will be without internet AND 3G all weekend. *mourns* IT IS GONNA SUCK. And then I'll be travelling again with only intermittent internet access until Wednesday night. I'm hoping that I'll still get a lot of writing done, but I will be so behind on reading!

ALSO: if you have been lurking and want to friend me, GO AHEAD! If you want me to friend you back, comment with something about yourself - feel free to steal a question or two from the meme! I like having friends. :D