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I just e-mailed in my letter of resignation.

I'm now working only one part-time job. This is the least I've worked since...May, I think? Not counting the beginning of January, when I was bedridden with the sciatica/back pain from the herniated disc. It's so much better, but acts up if I sit for too long, or sit in bad chairs. (WHICH, ALSO, WHY ARE THERE SO MANY SHITTY CHAIRS IN THE WORLD? Shouldn't we have figured out CHAIRS by now? Jeez.)

I have enough money to make February's rent. And my folks will help me out if I can't make March's. I've had really good luck getting jobs so far (I apply like a fiend and I interview well). Hopefully I'll find something good by mid-February. That's my yay!plan. My back-up plan, if all else fails, is to move to St. Louis, where my parents have an empty floor in their house, and will trade me walking their three ridiculous dogs twice a day for rent money.

Since I've been in school for so many years, and moved around so much, this is only the second time I've had to quit a job for a reason other than "Soon, I will be in a different state!"

I'm going to go bury my stress in coffee and teen!Clint meeting teen!Natasha, then proudly bringing her back to Coulson like a cat leaving a mouse on the doorstep. "LOOK WHAT I BRUNG YOU! Whoops it's still alive and has claws and teeth. I LOVE IT EVEN MORE PLEASE CAN WE KEEP IT?"

guys.

guys.

i am way too out of touch. it's becoming a problem.

a) taylor kitsch is in "The Normal Heart" and i only just found out, and i only found out because rabidchild67 told me that mark ruffalo posted a pic of them. together. "TAYLOR KITSCH TAKE ME TO A HOCKEY GAME" IS MY FAVORITE TAG ON MY ENTIRE DW/LJ, AND I DID NOT KNOW THAT HE'S GOING TO BE IN A MOVIE WITH MATT BOMER AND MARK RUFFALO.

ruff!

LOOKIT HIS LITTLE CANADIAN SMILE

AND HIS HANDS

AND HIS EVERYTHING

b) also i did not know that there's going to be a sequel to x-men: first class, involving spoilery casting things and hopefully more alex/hank/sean threesome-porn-inspiring-goodness. i found out about the sequel two days ago, when on a first date, and i'm pretty sure my fannish glee is the only reason i was like SURE SECOND DATE WHATEVER GOTTA GO PORN NOW except i said the last part only in my head. (and i am cancelling the second date, because this guy was kind of weird. like. wants to buy an island in international waters for post-apocalyptic reasons but is really serious about it weird.)

c) also i now have a job, which is a boring job, but which has 24-hour flexible hours and will tide me over until better work. although if i keep missing life-changing kitsch updates, then i'm just going to have to quit everything.

Anyone got advice on where to publish/submit/idek short erotic fiction for moneys? I want to do some original fiction, partly for the exercise and partly out of curiosity (it's been a really long time!), and I figure I might be able to make a little bit of money while I experiment. I'm down for F/F, F/M, M/M, ?/?/?, any genre. I think I'm going to stay in short fiction for the time being, because I suck at fics that are longer than 15k and I don't even want to think about mentally organizing an original fic that's that long.
In related news: anyone up for beta-ing a F/M porny fic...? It involves female domination, crops, powerplay, and bondage. Because of yes.
The job hunt is picking up a bit. I've applied to enough places that I'm starting to get a couple of bites. Ideally I want to end up with a 40hr/wk job with flexible hours, and then do random theatre gigs as they present themselves. Failing that, I'll take ANYTHING THAT PAYS ME MONEY, because of how I like to live under roofs and drive my car and eat food that isn't rice.
Got housing for the fall locked down! Nice place. Big room, good location. 3-person, but the other people need my approval before they get to move in, because I wheedled the landlord. \o/
I'm having to harass my roommate from last year. He owes me nearly $1,000 for utilities and he left his part of the house in such bad shape that we're not getting our security deposit back. I feel like Shylock. It is less than fun.
I fuckin' love pickles.

my subject line makes my life seem cooler than it is

my roommates are all international students

and i've only seen two of them

one of them keeps trying to talk to me in chinese.

there may or may not be a fourth roommate.

things i'm doing so that i won't sit in my room all the time (hi, depression!):
job interview tomorrow morning
sitting in a cafe right now
going for a rush ticket at the guthrie tonight
had breakfast with my brother this morning, doing a movie with him and his girlfriend tomorrow (it's his birthday. we're gonna see star trek. i am very okay with this.)
a date this sunday, with a sweet geeky guy. we're gonna do dinner at a veg restaurant and see 'gatsby.'

necessary postscript: i have dated, in the past seven years, a grand total of two people. (that threesome that time (okay, times) doesn't count. it was merely a lovely anomaly.)

i'm talking to two other people who i'll hopefully be meeting next weekend.

i have a new haircut that makes me feel cute, awesome boots, weird hipster shirts, a nice smile, and anti-anxiety medication. BRING IT, OKCUPID! \o/

now i am going to buy q-tips, call some apartment complexes (my sublease is up aug 10th), and go to thrift stores to find a blanket.

because blankets are cool.

I lost my whole damn wallet.

I'm currently in AZ. In two weeks, I'm flying to Philly for a weekend. Then I'm flying to St. Louis, where I'll stay for a week before going back to IL, which is where my driver's license is from. Luckily, I had one credit card stuck in my purse, so I have access to some money--but I have no photo ID, no access to my credit union account, so I can't deposit my paychecks, and I'm flying all over the country on different airlines and might not get let on board.

Also, my financial aid didn't go through for the fall, because I registered for too many credits (which, what?) and have to file an appeal. It would have been nice if they'd TOLD ME THAT before I called them in a FAFSA-induced panic. I've been getting no financial aid for the summer, because the head of my department didn't actually register me for the summer semester (which only he can do, and I sent him all the info necessary for it at the beginning of the summer). Aaaaaand I'm currently paying rent on TWO DIFFERENT APARTMENTS in Illinois.

The family I'm staying with while I'm in AZ moved houses a week and a half ago, and none of them can do heavy lifting, so THAT was fun. And the summer camp I'm working at is so poorly organized that I have nightmares about it. Not only am I directing a musical with 21 characters and a 30-kid cast, but every minute I'm NOT directing, I'm entertaining the 60 total kids who are enrolled in the summer camp (which they did not tell me at the beginning of the camp session).

And every day last week I had to watch the aftercare kids, two of whom are EVIL and made me want to tear my hair out, and THEN I had to drive the other directing intern home, because she has no car, so the earliest I got home any day this week was 7pm.

BEING. AN ADULT. SUCKS.

re: subj line--"next to normal" anyone? yes. i saw that musical once, and they sang that line SO MANY TIMES that it pops into my head whenever i'm feeling lively after a down spell. it's replaced the zombie "i'm aliiiiiiiiiiiiive!"

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So, it has been many moons (er, that means months, doesn't it. fortnights? couple-of-days-long-units-of-time) since I last updated.

Me in a nutshell: Finished out the year. Ended on a sour note with some people, which, I don't usually do, on account of how I avoid confrontation/negative interactions, so it threw me for a loop more than it perhaps should have. I'm heading to Phoenix in...a week (Phoenix! In ARIZONA!) for an internship. So, if my updating doesn't continue, it's possible that I've died of heat.

I should write a fuller entry on this, but: I got to meet

arsenicjade a few weekends ago, and she is LOVELY. She got me hooked on Magnificent 7, and we ate delicious food (smoosh-in ice cream and Indian food and homecooked pasta sauce with delicious bread), and mostly we lounged. It was relaxing and invigorating and fun. :-)

Um. Let's see. I'm bad at recapping. Um. I have a bag! Like, a nice bag! From a department store! It's made for women! *stares at it* I saw it, and my brain (and body, actually) made grabby hands. We're in love. It's weird. *stares at it more* I'm not big on shopping, and I mostly stick to gender-neutral/butch clothing, but this BAG. *stares more*

Uuuuuuuuuuuuum I should go write fic now. I have this weekend empty of things to do, so I need to make sure I do not slack, because I will be a happier person if I am writing stories.

I think (hope) I'm coming out of a kind of nasty depressive swing. I'm generally pretty crap at transitional periods, and worrying about money is never good on top of that, and I'm moving house, and saying goodbye to the folks who are graduating, and also, I've just been lonely. Which. Yeah. Sucks. But! I am feeling more chipper (I am sooooooooooo alive) and I'm going to go write and comment on folks' entries (I am soooooooooooooooo behind) and at some point, I shall eat food! Probably while watching Captain America. Because the Avengers have eaten my brain.

OH SPEAKING OF THINGS THAT ATE MY BRAIN

IS THERE A WHITE COLLAR HUNGER GAMES AU YET?

BECAUSE ELIZABETH WOULD WIN THE HUNGER GAMES YOU GUYS.

[Poll #1764255]If you have specific ideas for hooks/unresolved issues to address in any of those sequels, that would be awesome. Or if you have any tips/thoughts about writing sequels in general, I would love to hear them. :-)

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since 1871

i just quit my job

EVERYTHING IS KITSCH AND NOTHING HURTS

porn for pay (uh. kind of.)

haunted by foreign ghosts

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i'm alive i'm alive i am sooooooooooo alive

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